Check out the new color!
I just dyed my hair black. Until a couple of years ago, I didn’t let it grow more than a quarter of an inch. But after about 18 years of the same hair style, I finally felt a need for change. Changes to my appearance came slowly in the past couple of years, but, to celebrate my commitment, I want to kick it up a bit now. My weight goal still needs more time, but each thing takes me closer toward becoming the person I want to be.
As I state often, a podcast called Fat2Fit Radio, the website, and book provides me with a lot of information about health and weight loss. A prevailing theme of their weight loss philosophy advises people not starve, but lose weight slowly by eating like the thin person you want to become. Becoming that thin person follows with commitment to that method.
I figure improving mentally works for improving physically. A lifelong shitty attitude resulted in shitty health. I kept a chip on my shoulder to look like a rugged individual. I lived a lie for decades. Now, I aspire to be myself and follow what feels more like me. Yeah, I cover my thinning hair and dye away the gray. That could be argued as living a lie, but I feel and like myself better. I don’t think hating my reflection proves anything. Some I know scratch their heads at my adjustments. Fortunately, some support me. Strangers seem to treat me better. One even flirted with me recently. my energy increases each day along with my confidence and mood. A few people told me I look younger, which is great because I feel younger.
Becoming healthy and self-reliant stand as my most important goals. However, much more comes with that than just less weight and a job. With a new outlook on life comes a new me. I invest in myself to keep with the program. To make sure I live up to what I create with each change. Planning and attaining goals helps, also rewarding myself and celebrating milestones makes the journey more exciting.
In a parking lot on a hot August day back in 2002, a Transient Ischemic Attack (TIA), or mini stroke, struck me. I went to the emergency room where my blood pressure rated at a nearly fatal high of 212 over 180. Shortly thereafter, I saw a doctor for medicine to control the high blood pressure, but I also suffered a mental breakdown over the simultaneous collapse of my marriage and career. The resulting depression caused me to shun my responsibilities and health. My self-destructive behavior continued for years, which led to congestive heart failure and a two-week hospital stay.
I never found work again and lived off of the kindness of family and friends for years. An attempt to apply for Social Security Disability payments failed and two lawyers rejected my case for appeal. At my worst, I weighed almost 400 pounds with great difficulty breathing, moving, and walking. Even now, my security dangles by a thread from burning too many bridges and drove me to a deep think. I decided to get my life in order. I need to lose weight and gain the strength to work a steady job. I started eating healthy, exercising, and adjusting my attitude. After two months I lost 27 pounds and currently weigh 349 pounds.
This blog chronicles my recovery with education, information, and entertainment. I adhere to science based information on health and nutrition. The weight loss and self-help industry generates many scam artists who use misinformation and pseudoscience to victimize the desperate and needy making it difficult to discern the bullshit from the good. Critical thinking eases this difficulty.
Aside from the “Medical Disclaimer” in the sidebar, which I suggest you read, I feel compelled to warn you that I often choose “not-so-pure” techniques and ingredients. So if I offend your gourmet sensibilities, tough shit, my blog, my rules.
Check the site on Thursdays for new posts but expect them to pop up any day I please. May His noodly appendage touch you. Ramen!